Well, lets establish the order of priorities here...

Clearly, the fact that you do not like yourself is of greater significance than your wish to be photographed.
Such feelings can escalate and become a serious hindrance, you should not delay confronting them.
But, to deal with such a calamity you need extensive and reliable knowledge of what you do look like and also of what you can look like.
Photography, all kinds of photography, provides good means to gather the first kind of knowledge - you will not get it from staring at the mirror.
The second kind of knowledge can only be acquired by active searching, i cannot do that for you, but i can help you get the relevant information (images).

Note that the your image searching is worthwhile, in any case.
Whether or not you like your looks could well be based on false assumptions...